Keeping Faith & Not Giving Up Hope
I am currently writing this post after a very low point in my life. When you know there is hope but sometimes when you are so low you don’t think there is.
There is only one thing that got me through this time in my life…
THE BIBLE
Not just reading the bible and letting the words go in one ear and out the other, but actually processing what I’ve read and taking notes on what I need to working on or what I need to really remember.
Throughout this time I took the empty space that I had and filled it with faith & hope. I defiantly a dreamer and a go getter, but nothing was working out the way I had planned so I had no more room to dream and no more places or things to go get.
I was empty and broken.
I had stopped staring at my phone and staring into space. Just blank stares.
My mind usually runs a million miles a minute and it had stopped, all I saw was darkness. I didn’t want to play with my dogs, talk to my husband, be around my family, nothing. I had reached my all time low. I cried more than I had ever cried before and then lost all my want-to to do anything.
Nothing was working out in my favor. It was one of those times when you think “nothing else could possibly go wrong, but if something else goes wrong I don’t even care at this point.”
I was searching for jobs, searching for hope, searching for a new way to train my dogs, searching for money with no money, searching for love, searching for ways to fix my home, searching for anything to make my life a little easier and seem a little less hard…
So I sank into the bible and tried to
FIND GOD AGAIN
I prayed harder than I’ve ever prayed before and traded scrolling time on my phone to reading time in the bible.
I was going to get through this low and was determined to be successful.
I designed a bible journal for finding God because I was sure I wasn’t the only one out there that needed this.
I finally found a new job, one that actually paid what I needed to make, and worked extra hard on new training for my dogs, and made sure to stick to budgeting and communicating with my husband to make sure we stayed above water.
I STAYED with the bible, KEPT PRAYING, and continued to work hard!
